As I write this I am sitting on the couch in dirty sweats with my hair in a very messy bun and no makeup. I wish this was an unusual scene these days but it is not. We are going on 7 days of both babies having diarrhea. I can't even tell you how much poo I have cleaned up this week. Today alone I have changed NINE blowout diapers!
I have had two distinct thoughts today;
One: What has my life become!?! I use to get up every morning, get ready, dress professionally and go to work. I had an office, went to meetings and had responsibilities. I solved problems, interacted with people and accomplished tasks each day. I had value and purpose! Now look at me! How did this happen?
Two: As I snuggled my baby girl who had had six poppy diapers before 9 AM I thought about how very glad and lucky I am to be able to stay home and hold my baby while she doesn't feel well. I am so glad that I am not stressing about work because I had to stay home with my sick babies. I know what a blessing it is that I get to stay home and me a mom.
Being a mom is hands down the hardest job I have ever had. Most days I wish I could get ready and go to work. Being a mom is hard! I feel like I clean up the same messes and do the same chores day after day after day. I feel like I don't accomplish anything or do anything of value. Then I see my two little people toddling around laughing, making messes and stopping to give me a love and I feel like my heart might burst. I wonder how I got so lucky ... and then I clean up the same mess I have cleaned up ten thousand times!